My Life, My Loves... This is the story of one of them

Looking back… one love, a star shining on my skies. Promised myself he’ll never be forgotten. Since then, of course, other stars in my life followed, each one special in its unique way.

Soon after my divorce I started dating a fellow artist, a lovely angel, a very special one. Everything was fine and "ordinary" in our relationship at the beginning. I was working as a designer at that time, but he saw inside of me what I didn't know it did exist: my "protective" nature.

Now I smile... he was somewhere between delicacy and shyness when he opened up this subject: he was a sensually submissive man seeing in me a sweet Mistress for his soul. He made me quit my job and convinced me I'd be the perfect as an arts teacher for many generations of kids to come... And yes, our bedroom life has changed. After nights of passion, before dawn, full of joys, he used to whisper me the lyrics of this song... he couldn't sing, but his recitation was zephyr in my heart.

After a brief time of together he left for Brazil, never to come back... One day, it was late Summer, I received his friend's letter, a catholic priest, they left together, just a line: "Our beloved friend is resting now".


How some souls can change our lives! When I think of him, I don't have the feeling of being “left”, but surrounded by kind of an essence flouting in the air and literally breathing it. And it’s “real”, I don’t need any science or religion to prove me right or wrong, but I would love to know how it happens or “functions”… wish I could do this in my after life for the loved ones I’d have left here.


The Song:
Quiet Nights of Quiet Stars/Corcovado,
Antônio Carlos Jobim, 1960
"Corcovado" (known in English as "Quiet Nights of Quiet Stars") is a bossa nova song written by Antônio Carlos Jobim in 1960. The Portuguese title refers to the Corcovado Mountain in Rio de Janeiro. An English lyric was later written by Gene Lees. Andy Williams recorded the song in 1965.

Posted first on my site,
August 15, 2020

Well Done Things

I like things done well till the end and in every detail. Sometimes the desired results fail to appear,
but then at least we have the feeling of doing our best... Victory matters, so does the path
towards achieving it!

When Not Online

I teach crafts & visual arts, elementary school level... so in my bag plenty of crayons,
not much eye-liners or lipstick... well, maybe a hand-cream? Noooo, don't say now that you'd like to be my student!

She's a Kitten

I'm a kitten, I am also an advocate for Domestic Violence survivors as I am one as well. I look for my Wolf to protect me at my most vulnerable, to know my boundaries and how to push them without going to far, he knows how to after care because submission is completely letting go. Something feisty fiery kittens don't like to do because that means giving up control and control is what she needs to handle her never ending chaos she tends to find an unhealthy peace. Her Wolf's touch calms that chaos and provides his kitten a place to rest and gather energy to get her through get next storm. He's her logic when she loses hers and she is his caregiver when he is resting, she tends his needs because that's what they do, they are each others inner peace givers and with no words necessary, soul providers. They feel each others pain and pleasure, with nothing but sincere trust they walk through life together.

What it means to be a kitten.

I am a Kitten in a Kitten/Wolf Dom relationship. Kitten Play is the lighter side of BDSM. Similar to subs/doms and daddys/lils, but really what it stems on is the dynamic and connection between the people directly involved in the equation. The guidelines to most all BDSM is Trust, Open Communication, pure surrender and to achieve total submission teaching some how to let go when they couldn't find any other way to let go. But like I said, it all stems on the boundaries and understanding by those directly involved. To be an outsider looking in, its odd or weird when in all truth the beauty of the submission in its own rights is pure and vulnerable. The act of submission is just a part of the ritual that invites old wounds to heal and new trust to form. Don't get caught up in the the roles people play, it's what the roles symbolize and the meaning that really matters. I wear a collar because that signifies the wolf's claim on me, but I choose to wear it and be lead around on a leash, I am not forced. Life is too short to be tangled in labels when you could be tangled up with someone you trust fully, have nothing to hide and find peaceful euphoric bliss mixed with raw pheromones next to the one who shows you that a Utopia can be real!

LOVE

What is love?

I love a lot of the universe because we have a purpose here on the planet. I love the sunlight that gives life. One day we could visit the sunshine together. Isn't it nice to enjoy nourishment with each other. We will unite and stand proud join the crew.
Love is it lust?

I know we could have different ways to express the love emotion to one another.
an intense feeling of deep affection.
"babies fill parents with feelings of love"

Definitions from Oxford Languages

this is my definition of love. Every time you see and talk to this person you get butterflies in your stomach. You start to feel a bundle of emotions. You would do anything for this person including taking a bullet for them. You can't function without them. If they left nothing would be the same everything would be ruined
I think I love her every time we talk I feel something I've never felt with anyone before. I would do anything for her
by ha i have no name v September 01, 2020

Urban Dictionary

Intro:

Bi-sexual bartender/mixologist and artist who loves to exhibit her sexuality for some extra cash and play. Who can live without sex? The MRS sure can't. Enjoying all types of foreplay, especially roleplay; the only limitations are in your mind, because you can do anything you want with me. Love older men, and their experience, plus their willingness to go the distance sexually, and not hold nothing back. #fantasy #roleplay #fettish #feet #bdsm #petite #teen #young #blonde #blueeyes #pink